Thursday, November 1, 2012

Too many options

November 1.  I have officially gone 9 months without buying clothes (including shoes and accessories).  Even though I am now living without a watch (it broke) and have a little back pain from exercising in my thinly soled tennis shoes, my life is more simple now.  I can get dressed much more quickly with less options.  And I am determined to further reduce my options by giving away more of my clothes.  I want to live with less.  I am happier with less.

I probably wouldn't enjoy this so much if I wasn't able to make clothes.  It is nice to have something new every once in a while, but the feeling of making something is so different from buying it.  The process is much slower and longer and builds up my brain and my spirit rather than weighing it down with stress and guilt.

I can see my issues with clothing being repeated in the process of designing my kitchen.  There are a thousand options out there and none of them are what I picture in my head.  It is exactly why I started sewing (but I have no desire to learn how to make cabinets).  I think I am trying to make the "perfect" decisions.  I need to accept what is good and be content.  

I am actually sad that I only have 3 months left of this clothing experiment.  I am scared that I will go back to the way I was before.  I have "seen the light", but do I have the self-discipline to hold onto that vision?  I need to develop a plan.  One plan that keeps coming to mind was developed by Jesus -

"Sell your possessions and give to the poor."

That sounds pretty crazy.  But as I plan all the details of my new kitchen, that verse keeps coming back to me over and over.  He gave that as advice on how to stop worrying, and I'm starting to think he was right.  I'm going to go find some more stuff to give away...

"Watch out!  Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions." - Jesus

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